Everything means everything.

I’m so happy they gave the Grammy for Best New Artist to Bon Iver. Although it’s a tiny bit weird - Just because you can’t ignore For Emma, Forever Ago. And you shouldn’t. Anyway, that seems a bit nitpicky considering the fact that Chris Brown won Best RnB Album last night (or any award, really). We can all be glad that once in a while they do honor some great artists, in whatever category. This being said, some people seem to have some serious anger issues and the fact that Bonny Bear snagged the award, beating J.Cole and Nicki Minaj, made for some concerning outbursts on Twitter. Check out the new who-is-bon-iver tumblr:

http://who-is-bon-iver.tumblr.com/

And suddenly Bon Iver’s win is a race issue? WTH? Twitter is making my day sometimes. These people obviously don’t know that Justin Vernon recently jammed with The Roots on Jimmy Fallon and killed it on stage with KANYE WEST at last year’s Coachella. Why are they so angry? It was the same when Arcade Fire won for their gorgeous album “The Suburbs”.

So pleeeeease people, the fact that you don’t know an artist doesn’t mean he isn’t good. And seriously, stop playing the race card, it’s emabarrassing. Instead, turn up your speakers and watch Bonny Bear nail it with Kanye and the Roots. Thanks.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rMfd0_Ow5-0

http://www.latenightwithjimmyfallon.com/video/justin-vernon-jams-with-the-roots/1384071

xx

Just say what you wanted to say / I cannot stand these talks dear

I think I’m cured. I’ve probably said that a couple of times before but this time it’s true. A certain person just knocked himself off his pedestal for good! It’s pretty hard to instant-message someone sounding like an a-hole but he managed to do just that. The tone was completely different, no jokes,  no interest in my life, no emoticon-flooded responses or an excuse for not replying to my mails (two in three months and one was a holiday note, I’m not some annoying stalker) - nothing! Just a quick hello-goodbye (the “have a nice life”-kind).

I really don’t blame him for not texting me on a daily basis (like he used to) but he’s changed so much and being cut off like this does hurt a little. I’m also slightly worried about him since he seems to be drinking A LOT these days (he went from zero to whiskey shortly after we graduated and never looked back). I suspect that living all by himself in a new city and studying economics has really taken its toll on him, which, of course, he doesn’t want to admit.  And drinking is his way of acting out.

Fine by me - He is a grown man (made myself laugh there haha) and I’m not his mommy. I just hope it doesn’t go any farther than drinking - recreational drugs anyone? Mr. Mercedes sure has the cash for it.

Anyway, my point is - I hold him (his 2010-mid2011 self at least) very dear. And I love him a lot because I know he’s an exceptionally bright and kind person inside. I wish him all the best and how he behaves at the moment now will in no way diminish the quality of the moments we shared. He made a difference in my life while he was in it. However, I think it’s the end of the road for our friendship.

Yeah, I just quoted Boyz II Men there. Wow…In my defense - it’s 3:40 am!

In this spirit…Try to keep your memories alive and don’t be bitter. Be grateful for the time you got to spent with certain people who got lost along the way (for whatever reason that may be!). Cherish every minute of it.

xx Al

Maybe? Might sound crazy and fangirly…Not sure yet…I don’t want to reference the title and I haven’t found a quote (short enough) that I love so much I want to have it on me forever. But I like the sentiment of Dickens’ opening quote…Furthermore, I think Em&Dex are the best example that we should try to be brave and tell people how we feel about them, even if it makes for an awkward moment or two - because if we don’t me might find ourselves constantly thinking “what if…” and that can’t be healthy!

Thinking about a little airmail envelope or something…For Dex’s letter he wrote in Bombay in 1990 and it never reaches Emma. I know it gets lost and is found by a student named Heidi (who has every intention of sending it but fails to find out Emma’s address) but I feel like it’s one of those gut-wrenching moments of the book…especially when you re-read the passage. Definitely a “what if…” moment!

Any ideas for a one day tat? xx

I’ve been totally nuts over that guy for the past, what - 2 years? His parents are rich, he drives an expensive sports car…He is a little cocky sometimes, to others at least. None of that used to matter to me,  he was different with me, we talked for hours, had inside jokes and all that. Our St. Swithin’s Day 1988 was the better part of 2010 and early 2011. And now he’s off at university and he’s behaving like he’s the host of largin’ it. Seriously, it’s just booze, talking crap and booze. And of course he doesn’t respond to my messages anymore. He’s hours away (figuratively + literally) and omg, I just want to punch him in the face so badly. I love him very much as a friend, I adore the Yeats book he gave me for my 20th birthday with the pencil-written dedication on the front page. But I just don’t like him anymore. And for the record: I’m pretty sure I’ve outgrown him. HA! I want another Dexter Mayhew, a better one. Paris-Dexter (minus the fucked up divorcé thing).